You know what’s difficult? Being in a constant state of joy when everything around you is telling you to panic. But I understand that where I am right now is part of the process. I am human, and it’s okay to doubt, panic, and be sad. But I’m learning how to get out of that energy more easily.
I know that getting outside in the sun is imperative for warding off my depression during this time— it’s vital. Because if I allow myself to sink into those thoughts long enough, before I know it, I haven’t gotten out of bed for days and it causes a chain of negativity that flows from my thoughts to everything I touch. Getting out of that negative energy is important because I am aware of how powerful my energy is. It has the power to draw air outta the room, or it can bring smiles to everyone’s faces. I try my best to use my energy responsibly, but I’m human and a deep feeler, so sometimes it’s not so easy.
My biggest strategy is to keep myself from sinking into the sunken place to begin with. That doesn’t mean I don’t allow myself to feel (I’m not one to ignore my feelings anyway) but it does mean that I take time to reflect on how I’m feeling and how I can fix it. Sometimes it’s as simple as calling out what it is I’m feeling. Giving the feeling a name so I can address it and work on healing. Sometimes the solution doesn’t come that easily and it’s in those times where I have to fully accept where I am. Just be in the energy. I can feel the energy completely, but then I have to remind myself that in the present moment I have everything I need. It’s human to have worries and fears, but in the present moment (which is all any of us have) I’m taken care of and blessed beyond measure. Grounding and gratefulness is used to bring me back into a blissful state and can take a multitude of forms: sunbathing, walks, working out, music, and marijuana all help me to ground and ward off negative thoughts, depression, and anxiety.
It’s a moment by moment deliberate action. I ask myself, “What would make me feel good in this moment?” If it’s to go sit on my balcony and eat ice cream, then that’s what I do. I don’t worry about the consequences because what I’ve learned is that as my love for myself grows, my actions change. You won’t do just anything because you’ll learn what aligns with your spirit. So I wouldn’t worry about the action being good or bad, just enjoy the moment. Find ways to make your heart sing. As cheesy as it sounds when we start following our hearts more and listening to what our inner self is saying, it will lead you to where you need to be. I know that while my demons want me to panic about my finances, there is something deep in me that knows I will be taken care of. Even in my worst case scenario, I know that as long as I’m following what my soul is telling me, I’ll never be broke and I’ll never go hungry. If I’m following my spirit, I’ll end up exactly where I need to be.
So the lesson, when the world is telling you to panic, find a way to bring yourself back into the moment. You can acknowledge and feel the negative emotion but don’t allow it to stay. Practice gratefulness— what do you already have in this moment? Ground yourself. Your job is to manually shift the energy. Find ways to bring yourself bliss. And if all else fails, accept the moment and where you are and then release it. The present moment is.
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