Sexual Transmutation

I’ve been getting up around 4am for a least a week now.

Moths collecting on my window.

The lesson from this week was learning about my sexual energy. It’s been an eyeopener for me. I’ve heard of sexual energy but I’ve never fully understood it. The other night during the full moon, I pulled the “sexual energy” card, again. I read the description of the card and it still just didn’t resonate.

The description of the card talked about merging your connection with the creator with your connection to earth without any filters or blocks to experience true connection.

First, we have to change our perception of how we view sex. The word can cause confusion if we are only looking at it from a stance of two people physically coming together for intercourse. That is only one way to channel sexual energy. Your sexual energy is housed in your root chakra. For women it’s probably also referred to as “womb energy.” This energy directly connects you to the divine. How? Because your sexual energy is responsible for creating life and that is a POWERFUL energy. Remember we are co-creators. We are physical manifestations of God in human form. Given the gift to create from our wombs. That power is directly linked to a higher power. One way to use your sexual energy is to bring life into the world. Sexual energy. Divinity. Creativity. What I learned was that instead of releasing this power to someone else, instead I can harness this power upward and transmute it into creating something in my physical. Creation does not simply involve bringing children in the world. You create in your physical world everyday. When this is in lockstep with doing what you love, everything you create will be turn to gold. The birth of a new idea is still creating.

Well this flew right over my head. My thoughts were, “how can sexual energy not include another person? How can this energy help me receive a true connection?” I asked God for clarity and then I started doing research. I found an article that talked about “Sexual Transmutation.”

I’ve been using this power to fuel me. Using my power from the creator to create my reality in the physical. It’s a fuel from the divine.

If everything has energy. It makes sense that the energy stored in my womb would be the most powerful energy of all. I can believe that this power is connected to the divine because it makes sense. I’ve always felt a powerful energy in me but I’ve been disconnected from it. I didn’t understand it’s true power. I’ve always known I have a lot of energy. For example, when it comes to sports or anything physical I’ve always been gifted with endurance. Shit, I have endurance and patience with everything. But in relation to working out, that was my first clue of the energy I possessed. My workouts needed to be high intensive for me to feel like the energy went somewhere.

I’ve always had a lot of energy built up that would manifest itself into nervousness, restless, or anxiousness. Or I was constantly searching for something because it was blocked and/or being misused. I thought I needed to release it with another person occasionally because the energy was bottled up and needed to go somewhere. But the options lately 😂😂😂. The other day I told myself I would gladly stop doing that if it means I can achieve my life’s purpose.

The realization was pivotal. Use this divine energy to fuel what I do in my physical world. As long as I’m doing things I love, this divine energy keeps me going and going. I’m in such bliss that sometimes I don’t even notice that I haven’t eaten because I’m full. Harnessing my sexual energy I’ve been able to push myself further with my bootcamp workouts and at work it helps me move effortlessly from one task to the next. Ideas just flow.

I had a real moment with myself the other day. “Nashema, there’s a reason for this season of singleness.” I knew I had to accept that because I know that whatever is mine will come. My outdated conception of romantic love simply wasn’t coming. But, if you already have love from the divine and physical coming together doing something that you love, you will manifest everything to you. I already have love. It may not look like how I’ve been taught love looks like in the media, but I am full of love. Where your divine and your physical connect with your heart, that’s where the sweet spot is.

I’ve found love in what I do everyday. I’ve found love in the simplicity of everyday moments. I’ve found love in taking this energy and using it to fuel what I do every day, every moment. No drama. No difficulty. Whether it’s connecting with a friend. Walking outside. Listening to music and singing. Working at GrindHaus. I’m constantly in love. That is true bliss. When you can use that energy in the physical to do something you love, it’s doesn’t even feel like work. You’re creating. You have to release the fear though. I was blocked from doing what I love because the world had me scared about my finances. You can’t create in fear. You have to remove the blockage so you can step fully in your power. Once I did that, I started moving.

For now, I will do this journey of celibacy because the awards are just too great. I realized yesterday that I don’t need sex to connect with someone when everything I do now with this energy brings connection and creation. My cards have been saying I have the Midas touch and I’m understanding what this means fully now. How can I not create gold with anything I do with this energy behind me? My success is inevitable.

What I realized too was that my sexual energy before was limited to just my physical. I attracted people based on lust for me sexually, because that was my limited perception of it. Since I’ve been channeling this energy I’ve been feeling more balanced and I feel like my attraction has shifted to more than just my physical but a powerful confidence. A balance between my masculine and feminine. It’s really beautiful. I’m just being.

If this doesn’t make sense. It’s okay, one day it may. I always pray for understanding when it comes to what I don’t know and believe me, the universe will find a way to bring that lesson to you. If I could leave you with anything it would be to start your own research on sexual transmutation if you feel called to do so.