Author Archives: nashemaheard

Close your eyes little bird. There’s a spirit inside you that lays dormant. “Lean not on your own understanding,” but trust in your soul. The Lord. God, allow my spirit to fly free without the weights. I’ve been searching all along to end up back to the beginning. I’ve been pulling this ball and chainContinue reading “Make me a bird…”

My mother. What can I say about her. I know when she sees that I used her childhood nickname she’s probably gonna bop me on the back of the head when she sees me. So imma take advantage of this social distancing on her memory. My Scorpio mother. If anyone knows anything about Scorpios andContinue reading “Happy Mother’s Day Weasel!”

I just want to be seen and heard. I just want to matter to him. To be someone he finds worthy to be with for the rest of his life. I’m tired of being an afterthought. An option. A sexual release. Giving my all to be cared for and to matter. Wanting to share andContinue reading “Let it pour. A Quick-write”

Has anyone else paid to attention to what it feels like when God is talking to you? I don’t ever recall hearing his voice directly, but I have had times where he has used someone else to tell me something. The best way to describe it is a feeling of warmth when that person isContinue reading “This has no title. 8”

The commitment I made to myself to do a draft a day. It is important to me. But other things have come in and taken priority. This whole “figure out what you want to do with your life thing” has brought about a new kind of anxiety. The pressure to “figure it out,” “choose oneContinue reading “Career Fluidity #100daysofdrafts (day 7)”

I don’t even know where to begin… A lot of changes in the past week. Last week grades were due and per-ush… I was behind getting them updated. Hence, the lack of blogging. I could have done it though. There were plenty times were I sat and drafted ideas out… but I think the completionContinue reading “Solace. #100daysofdrafts (day 6)”

I had a low moment this week. Currently, I am dealing with cycles of low emotional wellness. A therapist I’ve seen before suggested that I might be depressed. I never took anything for it. I’m kinda regretting that decision now because the fear and pressure I have for not having a job soon is bringingContinue reading “Let’s Talk About Feelings #100daysofdrafts (day 5)”

Occupational Depression. I don’t know if the term exists or not, but imma go ahead and claim that I coined it. It is a temporary depression brought on by the unhappiness of one’s workplace. Coincidentally, as soon as I resigned, that cloud of darkness lifted. I had a coworker tell me yesterday that she feelsContinue reading “Ms. Heard, student #100daysofdrafts (day 4)”

(These are simply 1st draft free-writes. Therefore, editing wasn’t a priority). Another day. I will say that my reservoir of gratefulness has not been as full as it should be. Not having something lined up post CMS has definitely been my new stressor. Running out of money and having to start from the bottom upContinue reading “Resilience.”

Today I’m sitting on the couch thinking about what to do next. A part of me does feel liberated about my recent decision, but there is that part of me that worries. The part of me that fears failure. I got up super early and went right back to sleep. I had a list ofContinue reading “I’ve Eaten Three Honeybuns Already.”